Thursday, September 10, 2009

Memories arise

As of late I have had fun reconnecting with my friend Justina. Always interesting how face book can get you talking to people from your past that in reality you never really knew. Now I was originally going to blog again about everything that's going on such as my workouts, work, etc. But today while talking with Justina she talked to me about an assignment she had for class. A free flow poem about some hardship that you have gotten through in the third person. I used to write a bit of poetry back in the day so I put pen to paper and see what came out. Sometimes writing out your thoughts feels like an emotional cleansing. The result is below about my Fathers hospital stay, just wrote it straight through so there likely are grammatical errors.

A doctor walks in to look at a chart,
and asks how the patient is feeling.
His son in a sleepless daze arises,
he asks when his father can be admitted out.
I'm sorry says the doctor as he glances at the chart once more,
can I speak to you out in the hall.
The son says ok and shoots a smile at his dad,
his dad speaks only Spanish,
so he lays back in calm and silence.
We have to keep your Father for more tests,
we don't know why he's bleeding or when it will stop,
all we can do is continue till we see a result.
Silence is all the son could say,
until finally saying ok,
can he have something to eat?
I'm sorry but his only consumption is ice chips,
till we find what is wrong.
Back to the room the son would go,
same questions same answers for almost a week.
Son to his Father would say everything was fine,
as he could see his hunger grow stronger.
Till finally the bleeding was done and all was ok,
and the greatest satisfaction for the son,
was to see his father finally eat soup that day.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

THE List

There comes moments when everyone will reflect on what they've accomplished and what could have been. On May 18, 2009 I turned 27. I planned on celebrating it by being woken up by a baby crying, my wife turning to me and saying, don't worry stay in bed, relax it's your birthday. Then I rolled over and just as I was getting settled in my son would use the bed as a trampoline and drop a massive elbow onto me while yelling "happy birthday dad where are we going." That did not happen. Instead it was the sound of an alarm at 4am. Rolling out of bed and getting my workout clothes on to go for a jog. It was nice to get some random birthday text messages though. I did celebrate the day before. Took myself to a morning workout, breakfast, and then to watch my favorite book get adapted to the big screen, "Angels and Demons", which like everyone says about any book made into a movie.....the book was better.

At midnight of my birthday, just got me thinking of what I haven't accomplished. I wasn't bitter about not having wife and kids because I do believe all happens for a reason. I was possibly saved from a possible horrible marriage that likely could have ended messy and then also put the kids through it. Not something I ever want to go through. That was just my original thoughts on where my life would be.

And so I came up with this list. Don't get me wrong I am very happy with my life, but am I satisfied with my life, no. Now I was going to keep it private, but why should I? I should be held accountable for my goals. And here they are, there might be more added on, but this is the first run through. Enjoy.

1) Complete a Marathon
2) Complete a Triathlon
3) Go Sky Diving
4) Finish my Story Writing
5) Run "Love is Blind" event in 3 cities
6) Compete in 20 Wrestling Matches
7) Move outside of Bakersfield, CA
8) Learn to Play the Guitar (1 Song)
9) Go to Sea World
10) Camp at Yosemite
11) Travel to State I have never been to by plane.
12) Take Amtrak to Oregon
13) Take Amtrak to East Coast city, furthest East possible
14) Increase J Line company revenue of 2008 by 15%
15) Go river rafting
16) Find a new "Holy Grail" (New favored activity)
17) Go to Raging Waters
18) Get my body to a place where I can be happy with (Abs)
19) Get over fear of contacts or get lasik surgery
20) Learn to swim well
21) Win an award of some kind
22) Compete in a charity event
23) Complete a computer repair course
24) Finish off either college or car bill
25) Finish lyrics and music for current songs
26) Spend a weekend at a different beach
27) Learn to golf well
28) Perform a successful back flip
29) Ride a jet ski
30) Have a hangout spot
31) Have an spontaneous Vegas trip w/someone
32) Hike a known mountain
33) Shoot a tommy gun
34) Run a naked mile
35) Go to the grand canyon
36) Go to Hawaii
37) Visit the Statue of Liberty
38) Get dance lessons
39) Go skiing
40) Get a tattoo
41) Go to a Monster Truck event
42) Visit a new country
43) Post poems online
44) Go to Disney World

Monday, September 7, 2009

Blog Cherry

My friend Courtney first gave me the idea to get onto this site and start blogging. I had previously seen this website through other sources and had always said I wanted to start writing my ideas and thoughts. But just like my previous ideas such as keeping my wrestling website updated it became a faint thought in the back of my head of "I really should write about this, or write about that, really wish I could get this out there." And finally it has come. I got onto this website, signed up, and am in the process of my first blog. Now the question is how long will I keep it up for? Well I will likely get one maybe even two, if I'm feeling frisky, off tonight. And yes I think the word frisky is a very cool word. Currently I'm trying to raise as much funds as possible to get my bills as low as possible. I have always kept my info updated with the temp staffing agencies and up popped a security job, they are 12 hour shifts. Currently I'm on the 5:30 PM to 5:30 AM slot. I do have to go to my other job working for my families transportation company directly after this but the reason I decided to do this shift is not only do I get overtime but it's also holiday pay, so why not. It'll literally pay off in the end. I am not behind on any of my bills, actually I am currently ahead, it's just that I want to remember the time when I was completely debt free. I owed nothing on my car, nothing on my credit cards, and did not have any student loans. That way since I am still single with no children be able to tour some place and vacation conscious free.

It's just that with taking this part time job I am getting in the way of one of my other goals. My fitness goals. I am really not happy where my body has gotten to. I reconnected with my friend Courtney, who I must say is one of the most incredible girls you could ever meet. Not trying to kiss up or anything because she'll likely be reading this but just stating a fact that I do believe she is simply Awesome, and yes I capitalized the "a" in awesome to put emphasis on it, even though it is not grammatically correct....or maybe it is? Anyways, she brought to my attention the workout called "Insanity" and yes indeed it is insane. Now I will admit most of the time.....wait let me rephrase that, all of the video workouts I have done I have quit during, with the exception of a couple of the Biggest Loser workouts but I have never completed the six weeks of workouts they talked about.

Now "Insanity" is a 60 day workout plan. One I have actually managed to keep up with. I've pushed through on all the workouts and only find myself one day behind due to doing two jobs. I've even done the workouts while at my second job. Just brought a spare pair of clothes to change into. Luckily the other security person didn't head back there while I was shirtless and dripping of sweat. I don't think I have ever produced so much sweat in my life as when I do these workouts. There is literally a pool of sweat on the ground when I am done. Yes I know, it's so hot, stop panting and focus. I actually have Courtney to thank for that since she as well is doing this same workout.

One thing about myself is I'm big into competition. No matter what we're competing at. Now Courtney is a fitness instructor, on top of that, she was my first college girlfriend. Get it? Nobody wants to give up in front of an ex. Not that it really means anything, it's just that you don't want to appear to be a loser. And with the fit tests that are done, bingo, competition, along with that is the sole competition with myself. I usually kid about wanting abs so perfect I want to be able to bedazzle them. Hey everyone has to have goals......well that's my goal as silly as it may sound.

That is all for the moment. I am going to make myself a low fat turkey sandwich with and tomatoes aren't really friends, more like acquaintances we only get along when they're stewed or grilled, but fresh, not so much. I'm trying to change that and have a proper, but strictly nutritional, relationship with the tomato.

Adios for now.